#21 Frivolous Absurdity

And after all that I take a deep breath and realise that life isn't quite as bad as it looks...

I am getting a divorce at 23, my car wouldn't start when I got to the train station in the middle of the night, I can't sleep more than 4 or 5 hours a night and those few hours are filled with tumultuous and disconcerting dreams.

Yet somehow I can still feel strangely elated, nothing seems to be going right but somehow it feels like ‘not going right’ is just the way it needs to be for me to wake up and smell the roses. I know that when I’m old, sitting in a rocking chair, I will reminisce about how great the good old days actually were and how I wouldn’t change a thing if I could. It is just the dark little room that I’m in at the moment doesn’t really allow me to see the bigger picture, for that you need to relax and stop worrying for a moment.

If you don't like your job, quit it.
If you don't like your car, ditch it.
If you don't like your life, change it.
If you don't like your religion, lose it.
If you don't like your relationship, leave it.
If you don't like who you are becoming, fix it.


Then when you are old and sitting in that rocking chair you can look back and say, 'I am so glad I quit that job/ditched that car/changed my life/lost that religion/left that relationship/fixed that problem. My life would have sucked if I hadn't done that...'